Too old to carry arms and fight like the others --
they graciously gave me the inferior role of chronicler I record -- I don't know for whom -- the history of the siege
I am supposed to be exact but I don't know when the invasion began two hundred years ago in December in September perhaps yesterday at dawn everyone here suffers from a loss of the sense of time
all we have left is the place attachment to the place we still rule over the ruins of temples spectres of gardens and houses if we lose the ruins nothing will be left
I write as I can in the rhythm of interminable weeks Monday: empty storehouses a rat became the unit of currency Tuesday: the mayor murdered by unknown assailants Wednesday: negotiations for a cease-fire the enemy has imprisoned our messengers
we don't know where they are held that is the place of torture Thursday: after a stormy meeting a majority of voices rejected the motion of the spice merchants for unconditional surrender Friday: the beginning of the plague Saturday: our invincible defender N.N. committed suicide Sunday: no more water we drove back an attack at the eastern gate called the Gate of Alliance
all of this is monotonous I know it can't move anymore
I avoid any commnetary I keep a tight hold on my emotions I write about the facts
only they it seems are appreciated in foreign markets yet with a certain pride I would like to inform the world that thanks to the war we have raised a new species of children our children don't like fairy tales they play at killing awake and asleep they dream of soup of bread and bones just like dogs and cats
in the evening I like to wander near the outposts of the City along the frontier of our uncertain freedom I look at the swarms of soldiers below their lights I listen to the noise of drums barbarian shrieks truly it is inconceivable the City is still defending itself
the siege has lasted a long time the enemies must take turns nothing unites them except the desire for our extermination Goths the Tartars Swedes troops of the Emperor regiments of the Transfiguration who can count them the colors of their banners change like the forest on the horizon from delicate bird's yellow in spring through green through red to winter's black
and so in the evening released from facts I can think abut distant ancient matters for example our friends beyond the sea I know they sincerely sympathize they send us flour lard sacks of comfort and good advice they don't even know their fathers betrayed us our former allies at the time of the second Apocalypse their sons are blameless they deserved our gratitude therefore we are grateful
they have not experienced a siege as long as eternity those struck by misfortune are always alone teh defenders of the Dalai Lama the Kurds the Afghan mountaineers
now as I write these words the advocates of conciliation have won the upper hand over the party of inflexibiles a normal hesitation of moods fate still hangs in the balance
cemeteries grow larger the number of defenders is smaller yet the defene continues it will continue to the end
and if the City falls but a single man escapes he will carry the City within himself on the roads of exile he will be the City
we look in the face of hunger the face of fire face of death worst of all -- the face of betrayal
and only our dreams have not been humiliated.
--Zbigniew Hebert, "Report from the Besieged City."
When Rene Girard describes an education of violence, he appeals to the possibility that there is something to be learned from war's disasters, that there may be an escape, through a retrospective appraisal, from the mimetic economy of war-making and the logic of attack-counter-attack-wounding-revenge-plot-wounding-attack-counter-attack.
In the 1960s, dismayed at the cultural numbness that seemed to permeate the rebuilt Germany, Adorno wrote that if nothing else, the hollow echo of postwar appeals to Hitler and fascism should have been unthinkable. And if not by attention to the victims of the regime, then at least by virtue the brute sufferings endured by even the staunchest nationalist supporters. But instead, there seemed little interest or capacity to connect the ideology designed to dispense destruction outward and the ruinous results absorbed, best symbolized by Hamburg, Dresden and Berlin.
And so one thinks too of Brecht's postwar version of Antigone where the tragedy is not in the image of a controlling Creon who comes to see his error too late, but in the "unteachable" Creon, a maker of war who controls even the dead.
Still, Girard, citing Clausewitz, describes the extreme forms of mimetic desire that drives war forward and the race toward forms of destruction. And from this Girard holds to the possibility of breaking that cycle, insisting, however quietly, that violence can teach one what not to do. There is, he says, a possible otherwise: one can make a leap out of the tragic propulsion by refusing the rules given and the form to be copied.
Is this what Robert McNamara, who died this week, did late in his life, after helping to formulate the air terror inflicted on Japan and unleashing the "rolling thunder" of the bombing of Vietnam? Did he testify to a new vision?
McNamara's memoir, In Retrospect, and his presentation in Errol Morris's The Fog of War, may have been appeals for a forgiveness most would not and should not grant. It might have also been a Girardian attempt: to learn from the process of deciding upon such horrific destruction, to dispense a new wisdom of war in the nuclear age, to teach the lessons that might instigate a new mimetic desire for avoiding war, for developing empathy, for an illumination beyond a crude, groping violence. But there are still deep reservoirs of thought and memory that McNamara seems incapable of fathoming. What we hear instead of learnable lessons is the cadence of someone who long ago passed from the realm of the living. He remains too comfortably on the surface of his survival and so the lessons seem hollow, escapist, the tragic in lockstep with the insight.
And some time make the time to drive out west Into County Clare, along the Flaggy Shore, In September or October, when the wind And the light are working off each other . . .
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